Dad (One Year Later)
My life has changed so much in the last year. Dad’s passing really made me re-evaluate my life. I took a long hard look at where I was and where I wanted to be.
I finally saw that my Marriage was a sham. That very night in fact. She called me today to tell me that she had the papers for me to sign (apparently completely overlooking the significance of the date).
I started singing again. I inherited my voice from my Father. It is what I most thankful to him for (besides, you know, life).
I took the leap to pursue the girl of my dreams. I traveled three thousand miles to tell her in person. I knew how it would end before I got on the plane, but I won’t die regretting not having done it. (I almost called today. I almost call everyday, but what will it do?).
I have decided on a career change. I’m still not sure how it will work out, but I have a plan. I’ve never had a plan.
I look at my life today, and I’m not thrilled. 34. Getting divorced. Not in the best shape of my life(by a long shot).
But, then I look again.
I’m acting. I’m currently involved in two shows in which the directors came to me. Good parts in both. The latter of which the Director went through great pains to make sure I could be in it. That is a staggering thought to me.
I have amazing friends. I’m in 2 weddings next year, one of which I am going to be Best Man in. When I got back from Virginia, all I wanted to do was hide under my bed. My friends gave me a week or two then dragged me out to tell me how much they loved me. Staggering.
I’ve been trying on the idea of being “Single” lately. It is not a comfortable fit. Mostly, I feel “Alone”. But, I’m trying it out. Still too early to tell.
Tonight, after rehearsal, I sat down with some friends from the theater and had a few drinks and told some “Dad Stories”. Then after everybody left. I sat on the hood of my car and had a cigar. Dutch Masters. What my father used to smoke. I did it in his honor.
I’m going to try and lead a good life in his honor.
And maybe, my own.
I finally saw that my Marriage was a sham. That very night in fact. She called me today to tell me that she had the papers for me to sign (apparently completely overlooking the significance of the date).
I started singing again. I inherited my voice from my Father. It is what I most thankful to him for (besides, you know, life).
I took the leap to pursue the girl of my dreams. I traveled three thousand miles to tell her in person. I knew how it would end before I got on the plane, but I won’t die regretting not having done it. (I almost called today. I almost call everyday, but what will it do?).
I have decided on a career change. I’m still not sure how it will work out, but I have a plan. I’ve never had a plan.
I look at my life today, and I’m not thrilled. 34. Getting divorced. Not in the best shape of my life(by a long shot).
But, then I look again.
I’m acting. I’m currently involved in two shows in which the directors came to me. Good parts in both. The latter of which the Director went through great pains to make sure I could be in it. That is a staggering thought to me.
I have amazing friends. I’m in 2 weddings next year, one of which I am going to be Best Man in. When I got back from Virginia, all I wanted to do was hide under my bed. My friends gave me a week or two then dragged me out to tell me how much they loved me. Staggering.
I’ve been trying on the idea of being “Single” lately. It is not a comfortable fit. Mostly, I feel “Alone”. But, I’m trying it out. Still too early to tell.
Tonight, after rehearsal, I sat down with some friends from the theater and had a few drinks and told some “Dad Stories”. Then after everybody left. I sat on the hood of my car and had a cigar. Dutch Masters. What my father used to smoke. I did it in his honor.
I’m going to try and lead a good life in his honor.
And maybe, my own.
